I am proud to know that you have walked the way until the end of your first year and you have not given up. I am sure you have gone through many things and have come out of them with your head held high, with your optimism untouched and your goals and aspirations still in focus. I am sure you have overcome the grey skies and the cold people, you have found the strength to get up in the morning with a smile on your face, when everything is letting you down, and this is why I am sure you are doing all right and my letter will find you in a better place than I am right now.
I hope all of your worries and fears about having made the wrong choice coming here have been proven wrong and everything has worked itself out. I know you might have felt England is not home and is no Italy, but I am sure you've learned to live in it and live with it and work with that to the greatest extent possible. In the least, you probably gathered experience and knowledge, which you couldn’t have done if you had repeated one of your journeys to somewhere easy and warm. I am proud to see you growing up everyday and overcoming difficulties, dealing with people and problems, work and finance, love and loneliness, coping with all the human conditions in this horrible (to some extent) place.
I am proud to see you have done some good work in writing. I am glad you have remembered what it felt like to be able to write when you want to without feeling your mind had blocked and you couldn’t let anything out and what it felt like to be praised for something you have written when you least expect it. I know you were worried about your procrastination issues, but I am sure that with patience and optimism, your creative side was 'reborn' and your desire for writing has blossomed with spring's arrival.
Do not worry about not having done anything, as you should know there are many who don’t do nothing and they don’t feel bad. So just take a moment, step back and look at what you’ve done since you left that cosy little town called home and went on a quest in search of yourself. I know sometimes you might feel like you haven’t accomplished anything you wanted, as I know your plans for the future were quite big, but you did the best with what you had, and for that as well, I am proud. Just keep writing, keep believing, don’t let people darken your bright mind and you will be fine.
I am also sure you have discovered what you want to do and it might have been the thing you had a vague instinct towards a long time ago. Do not regret not having gone for film when you could've, as you will definitely get into that and utilise the skills you acquired from journalism. I know sometimes you wonder if it might've been better to have picked something different, as you had many interests and it was scary to focus on just one, but I believe you chose correctly and went for the best opportunity to succeed.
A final piece of advice – read more, write more and talk to those people who make you feel so small because they pursued their dreams and they LIVED when you think you didn’t – there is no point wasting time with people who have nothing to teach you and you have nothing to teach them. And don’t spend so much time being sad over the times you lost, no matter how good they were. Enjoy every feeling in every single moment because I know one day you will miss that, too.
Love,
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