I am standing here, so close to the end of the first year of my journey, and I am admiring everything I have achieved for such a short time. You know I didn't believe I was going to accomplish much and I was worried about surviving in England with no money and no friends, but I have to tell you this first year was simply amazing.
What amazing things I have done, both academically and personally. From the beginning of the year, where everything seemed out of place and I felt I was the only one who didn't understand anything, to the end of it, when I know this is exactly where I belong and I might have finally found my little place in the world. I am so proud of my hard work and my grades, my outside projects and my involvement in other things I have interest for. And I am even more proud of my hard work and accomplishment for the East Asian Film Society and my production during the Udine Film Festival, which I got to see with the society.
You know in the beginning I was worried that this would not be the course for me and I will go through a familiar process of dropping out and feeling miserable. And looked like that a little, for the first term focused on print journalism and, in particular, news reporting, and I felt I needed to transfer to media production or something more visual. But I am glad I waited for this to end, because I saw what incredible things were ahead of me in the course. Radio, magazines, short films, silent films - I couldn't wait for people to see what I have done and to receive my grades back. But all beginnings are difficult, you know. I just followed your advice of holding my head high and keeping my goals in focus, which helped everything else work itself out.
An unexpected thing happened this first year - I got a sense of what exactly I want to do in life and that is something incredible for me. I, who have always been afraid of making the wrong choice and never having been able to pick something to do, as I wanted to do everything, I finally realised what I am best at and what interests me the most and if I pursue that, I believe it will be a very successful thing. And my high-school literature teacher even approved, as she knows me and she said I have finally found my spot. It is the thing I had a vague instinct towards, you are right, and I am glad you told me not to regret my decisions, as I am sure now that my journalism skills would prove irreplaceable when it comes to my dream of writing about film. I just know that it is the right decision, the right direction, and it feels good to finally have a path to follow.
Life and work might still be uncertain, but this is the one thing I am really good at and with enough hard work and perseverance, I know I can achieve a lot. I will try to follow your advice and read more, write more and talk to those admirable people, which, I am afraid to say, I haven't really done this year. But I followed my interests and got involved in interesting things, I did my work and kept being the person you know me to be, so I am proud to say, loud and clear, this year has been amazing and I can't wait to see what else will come.
With all my love,
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